Saturday, March 15, 2008

the stop and chat.

is that.... the intreneat?
omg it is!
HAI! its me jojoko.
yeah i know, its been a while.
me? well alot has happened, but not much has changed.
well i got a job.
uh huh. its full time.
yeah i work in an office.
i feel like a grown up.
and there is this guy russ that looks like david brent from the office uk.
no, he just looks as if ricky gervais lost weight.
other than that he's just a boss.
oh i answer phones. yeah pretty easy. plenty of downtown time.
yep got a badge and everything.
i know! tell me about it. (awkward lol)
well my life coach told me about it.
you're right that does sound made up. but i got one to get me back on track after i left school.
i spent too much time doing nothing and just being depressed.
yeah at one point i even wanted to move back in with my parents!
thank god i didn't! that would've been a mistake!
i mean who wants to live with their parents again?
well that's you. i would be embarrassed to tell people.
but i do want to be close to them. its hard being far away from family.
well i stayed just because i didn't know what else to do.
and it doesn't hurt i've got friends here too.
but to be honest, certain things can weed out the true friends from the fake ones.
well some people were worried about me.
because i was isolating myself again.
dunno why. i just do it when i get depressed.
yeah it was hard to find a job, especially when you expect them to come to you!
but i'm more or less happy now in this new job.
i say that because i feel a bit trapped. just because i've never had a full time job before.
and i find it hard to quit jobs. i've never really quit a job before.
when i worked at tarjay i just didn't show up and they fired me of course.
and then when i worked at jamba i sorta did the same thing but pretended like they were supposed to know that i quit.
anyways i want to eventually go back to the bay area. but i've thought about pdx too.
just because they are metrosexual... like me... i'm gay.
hehe. yeah that was weird. but how are you supposed to come out to people?
its always going to be awkward.
oh to just about anybody who asks now-a-days!
why can't i just be honest?
my mom asked. and i told her.
oh yeah they both are fine with it, but we don't talk abou tit.
just because its weird to talk about. i usually live on awkwardness! for instance i ate ours up! its so lip smackety!
but when its about that subject, i just can't.
i mean who wants to explain sex & sexuality to their parents?
true. true.
yeah i sort of use that to get closer to people.
kind of kick a friendship in the butt.
nope nothing negative yet.
i'm surprised that the people that i thought would know didn't; and the people that didn't even know what gaydar is, knew before me!
no, i'm not even looking for one. i don't think i want one now.
well i'm not 21 yet so theres not much to do here. and i'm still in between paychecks. so yeah.
at the end of the month actually. nope no big pans. i just don't drink much. and when you legally can, its not such a big deal anymore when you've been doing it for years.
yeah my cousin went to vegas for his birthday too.
no, i'll be good. spend it with my friends. probably gonna be a relatively quiet night.
that's how i like it.
well, thanks. oh sure i'll definitly see you before then.
ok, bye.